burning cities

I see burning cities in your eyes
a catastrophe 
a holocaust
those flashes of fire
rising up
raging, and enraged
wanting to be saved
for the thousandth time
but you keep on drowning
in your own flames.

......

I miss you everyday. 
The only way I've been trying to get to you 
is through my words.
And I will continue on doing that, 
for as long as I live. 

Beneath My Pages

Fate has taken you away from me

Yet the perfume of your body 

still lingers across the room,

the huskiness of your voice 

still resonates in between the walls,

as for my love to you;

they are still alive beneath my pages.

I call upon the wind 

to carry away my words

so they reach you

translucent and pure

for they are still alive

beneath my pages.

The Old me

I'm mourning for the old me that is lost
I'm mourning for the old me that is gone
I'm mourning for the old me that used to know myself better
I'm mourning for the old me that wanted nothing but happiness
I'm mourning for the old me that used to see the good in everything
I'm mourning for the old me that used to think love was always the right answer
I'm mourning for the old me that had a purpose
I'm mourning for the old me that would be disappointed today
I'm mourning for the me that is trapped inside this monster

Out of everyone that was leaving,
I thought you'd be the last one to go.
Yet, always doing what you do best,
you had to prove me wrong.

...

When I hear my favourite sound of your laughter
and I turn to my right to see the way you squint your eyes
laughing to a joke that I didn't think was funny,
yet I couldn't help but laugh along
as I thought to myself,
what could possibly ruin this moment of utmost happiness?

How foolish was I,
oh how foolish was I
To not realize then that everything, 
Everything could ruin it.

A friend in need is a friend indeed

Friends are certainly the family you choose for yourself. While choosing, you gotta choose wisely.

Which one are you? And which one have you chosen for yourself?

A friend who is undoubtedly a family
A friend who cares for you like no one else
A friend who constantly checks up on you
A friend who is a sister
A friend who is a brother
A friend who is no longer with you but you know his loyalty remains
A friend who you don't need to talk to everyday but the bond stays as strong
A friend who always has your back
A friend who always picks up the call
A friend who calls only to ask for help
A friend who keeps on wanting to make your life decisions for you
A friend who wants to control you
A friend who makes you feel continuously at fault
A friend whose only intention is to bring you down
A friend who is always there to help
A friend who is always there when you are hungry
A friend who is always there to make you happy
A friend who gives you happiness by just being present
A friend who won't let you shed a tear
A friend who struggles but won't let it affect you
A friend who is still searching for the true meaning of life
A friend who is always supportive
A friend who loves you like no other
A friend who will never let you go


I think we are all guilty and innocent all at once. I wrote this as a reminder to all, especially myself - to be better :)

(I don't have a title for this one yet)

In the midst of this chaos, and I'm still
trapped in the silence of your words.

In the midst of this war, and I'm only
searching for the blade of your sword.

In the midst of this catastrophe, and I'm
still following the echoes of your voice.

In the midst of this darkness, and I'm still
hoping for the warmth of your light.

In the midst of this hardship, and I'm only
wishing for the ease of your soul.

You Would Have.. Only If You Did

If only you would listen 
If only you would stay and listen 
Instead of leaving, you would have understood 

If only you would look
If only you would turn around and look
Instead of going away, you would have seen the truth 

If only you would speak 
If only you would utter a word and speak 
Instead of just wondering, you would have known 

If only you would feel 
If only you would try and feel 
Instead of giving up, you would have tasted a piece of myself 

Inverse

When the rain you see isn't the same rain you used to see
When the clouds you see isn't the same clouds you used to see
When the trees you see isn't the same trees you used to see
When the moon you see isn't the same moon you used to see

How can certain things be so familiar yet so strange
How can certain things be so different yet so much like home
How can certain things be so close to you yet so distant
How can certain things be so far away yet the most dear

How can you call me yours when you're not even mine

Betrayal

A person that I thought I knew became a stranger
A place that I used to call home became so foreign

I wanted to see myself in the mirror but I see no reflection
Have I left myself too far that I can't find it anymore

Pictures that I captured are now smudged
Memories that I always had in my head are now blurry

The flower that I used to pluck is now full of thorns
The beach that I used to visit has abandoned its shore

Roads that I used to take are now barbed
Music that I always listened to is now muted

The only way to leave is to never return
And the only thing that I can rely on is the words that I've written

(no title)

We have no power over things that have been written
Nor do we have knowledge over things that will happen
So why don't we just focus on matters that are important
And fix those that are broken

How Would You

How would you understand pain if you've never felt it
How would you understand sorrow if you've never tasted it

How would you understand fear if you've never had the rush running through your veins
How would you understand anger if you've never overcome it

How would you understand loneliness if you've never been abandoned
How would you understand happiness if you've never embraced it

How would you understand the moon if you've never seen darkness
How would you understand the sun if you've never enjoyed the light

How would you understand me if you've never even tried
How would you understand my heart if you've never gotten a bit of it

What Am I To You

Am I not worthy of your time
Am I not worthy of your attention
Am I not worthy enough to get a taste of you
Am I not worthy enough to get the craving I need

Like flowers need water to blossom
Like birds need wings to fly
Like a writer needs their hands to write
I need you to survive

The Opposite

We're so different yet so similar
You're far aside and I'm on the other
You make me forever want to linger
Cause honey in your arms I surrender

You make me want to be better
Despite all the rage and anger
I know we will always come back together
Cause when its me and you, other things don't matter

You do not understand

Its sad when you think you know me when you don't. You don't know when silence occupy myself, thats when I need someone to lean on to the most. Its frustrating when I could just fake a smile and you'd believe it. When I could just laugh out loud but you'd never hear the screaming inside my head. Its painful when I thought you'd understand me the most out of all, but you don't. When I thought you'd stay but you chose to leave. The most painful it is when you doubt how much you mean to me. 

I Found You

I was deep in my lost thoughts

And I found you

I did not know what I was searching for

And I found you

I was not sure of my purpose

And I found you

I slipped off the track, falling

And I found you

I found you when I could not even find myself, and you saved me, every single time 

A Sealed Chapter

Hey peopleeeee! Its been so long since I last posted anything here. I haven't been writing for awhile. To be honest, at one point, I felt lost. I lost the motivation and inspiration to write. And its such a torture because writing has always been something I love doing. And for me to feel like I've lost touch with one thing that I love doing the most was kind of depressing.

But I tried to find it back.. To find it back from people around me. To find it back from my surroundings. And thanks to poetry classes that I somehow got motivated again. Here is a poem that I recently wrote, and I thought of sharing it here as well instead of just keeping it in my book.

A SEALED CHAPTER

You’re the chapter that I’ve finished up writing,

Like the wind that has long gone spinning,

Like the leaves flying away taken by the breeze,

Like the waves on the shore returning to the sea.

You’re the chapter that I’ve finished up writing,

The inks that cannot anymore be erased,

The pages that have been sealed,

The written words that cannot be removed.

You’re the chapter that I’ve finished up writing,

Words that I still keep close to my heart,

Words that I hope you would utter,

Words that I will always remember.

You’re the chapter that I’ve finished up writing,

That I wish I could rewrite,

That I wish could be undone,

That I wish I did not even start.

You’re the chapter that I’ve finished up writing,

A part of me that has long been lost,

A part of me that I don’t want to recall,

A part of me that I wish had stayed.

You’re the chapter that I’ve finished up writing,

Like the flowers that have lost the scent,

Like the river changing its flow,

Like the raindrop that has fallen on the ground.

You’re the chapter that I’ve finished up writing,

The one that forever will be sacred,

The one that I will always keep as a secret,
The one, my favourite.

I started writing this poem months back but was never able to finish it. I completed it just a few days ago while sitting in the library with Salman and Nasreen with me. Its not that you guys inspired me or anything :P  but thank you for always being by my side. And to my Izzy too! And I have to give credits to Sara for helping me in coming up with the title. I love you peeps <3

Finding flaws

Whatever applies in a relationship very much applies in friendship as well. For friendship is the base to build a healthy relationship. We may find flaws when together, but it is not to use them against each tother but to accept them. Loving a friend means loving them for who they are because people are different and you can't change that.

...

you're not giving me the attention that I need

what else should I do

what else can I do

when every nerve in my body craves for it

and I'm not getting any of my wishes