To all of you kids, and myself :)

This is something that I want to remind all the young people again, including myself..

In this phase of life you're facing now, I can tell that it is not an easy one. You might have troubles in finding friends, you feel like no one can hear you out, you think nobody cares about you, you feel like you're carrying a super heavy load on your shoulders, you feel like no one understands you anymore, you want to be alone but you don't want to be alone, you want people to reach out to you but at the same time you don't want it.. All the confusions, all the drama, all the shit thats going on in your life. You just wanna get away with it, but you can't.

You cannot just get away with it. Because whatever you're going through with your life right now, it makes you the person you choose to become one day. You find yourself through your struggles. Every obstacle you face in your life, big or small, it changes you in a way. And every one of those will make you appreciate life even more. You choose, for the better or worse. Its all on you.

For you young kids, later on in life you will meet a lot more different people from different backgrounds. Five years ago I never imagined my life as it is right now. I used to think that people had similar way of thinking. I thought they would be more compassionate and loving towards each other. But as I grew up, I could see not everybody has the same heart as we do. Not everybody feels deeply sadden by things that I know would affect me the most. Because we're not the same. And from where I'm standing right now, I see people that think differently, they have different views on how they see life, they have different objectives in their life, they have different definition on every matter.. And we have to learn how to accept each of that.

Also you will see how some people trying to fit in with the society. Its happening now. It is going on very badly that I don't see them as individuals anymore, in fact I see them as a group of people that try to duplicate each other. In the sense of fashion, the sense of mentality.. Some people are afraid to actually point out their views and thoughts on something just because not everybody thinks the way they do. This is not how its supposed to be. With the world we live in today and every opportunity we get, we should be more open and respectful with each other's idea.

And of course at this age, we always want to try something new. It is all about having fun, experiencing life, making memories, good or bad so you would have stories to tell your grandkids one day. It is good. Creating memories, going out there to experience life is not a bad thing at all. But don't go too much on it to make it ruin your entire life. You should know that there are limits to everything. You should set boundaries to everything you do. And most importantly you have to stand to your roots. You will find people trying to trigger that one nerve in you that will make you go against yourself. You must always remember that you only have yourself when everybody leaves, so you don't want to harm yourself. Have faith in you.

Peer pressure is real, I tell you. So you would want to find friends that'd do good to you. You gotta surround yourself with people that want the best for you, and they want you to be happy because without happiness you won't be enjoying life. You will find people that try to pull you down the stairs but you gotta find people that will willingly pull you up there back again.

You have to always stay true to yourself. Stand on your ground. Do not let other people change you to become worse. Do not let them take out the positive vibes in you. Do not let them erase the enthusiasm you have in yourself because not everybody has that. Do not let them destroy your dreams. Do not be like them, because being yourself is very rare nowadays. You gotta always have that spark in you that lightens up each person that enters your life.

This message is for all of us young people who are struggling.. I remember someone once told me that we all connect through our struggles, which is very true and it got me thinking how we actually experience that everyday.

We never stop struggling because that is life. We struggle our way to find ourselves. We struggle our way to find our goals. We struggle our way to find God.

Flying Away

I always love seeing planes flying up in the sky. 

Knowing that everyone in there has a destination. They 

have some place to head to. And there is  someone in

some corner of the world waiting for them. 

To embrace them into their arms. To feel the warmth of their kiss. 

I love seeing people rushing at the airport. Everyone

has a flight to catch. Some are heading back to a place 

they call home. Some are heading to a whole new place 

filled with strangers. When it comes to me, I prefer the latter. 

To be able to go to a place of strangers, to a new city with 

fresh new faces with new unfamiliar smell. I crave for that. 

Getting out of here, be on a plane heading somewhere 

towards the southwest. 

wonder and wander

Its always language and Geography

Its weird but thats how I like it

I am still wondering

but I guess I just love mysteries 

I am still wandering 

but I guess I will just let the wind takes me to my next destination

And I will leave it all to you to make the next step on the stairs of destiny. 

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The Internet is slowly killing my brain cells.


HOW IRONIC... 

I have other plans

Watching all these movies about romance and weddings makes me wanna have my own love story and plan my wedding day. 

But that ain't gonna happen anytime soon. 

Being a 21 year old girl, just like everyone else my age.. we have dreams to catch, things to accomplish before we start a life with someone else. Marriage is a huge commitment and I'm not ready for that yet. I still have a whole world out there to see. I still have goals to score. Getting married is probably one of them, but thats not my concern right now. 

I used to be worried about getting married. But since these past few months, I started to see things differently. Something hit me and I think marriage is not the answer to everything that I want. Of course it would delightful if you already found someone who's willing to sacrifice for your happiness. But if you haven't, don't fret. It's still a long journey ahead. And I am ready to explore it. 

I'm done

I'm done believing in you
You've gone away lying to me

I'm done hoping for miracles
You're gone leaving me hopeless

I'm done crying my eyes out
You've gone making me crumble into pieces

I'm done dreaming of fairy tales
You've gone taking the fantasy out of me

I'm done wanting for more
Because all I'd gone through was never worth fighting for

You didn't try
You didn't fight
You gave up
When all you had to do was to spit it out loud

I shall cherish those moments
Those moments spent together
Together I thought would be forever
Forever it would be in my heart and soul

It was never a mistake knowing you
It was never a mistake falling in love with you

The time we spent was not wasted
Because it was happiness all over the place
And happiness is all I want right here right now
Over and over again, just like how it used to be

....

You pull me and you push me. I'm breaking apart deciding whether to leave or to stay.

Sometimes you would talk, sometimes you would refuse to utter a single word. You're mysterious just like the hidden treasure in the woods.

You stand up for what is right. You fight for what is yours. You keep close of what belongs to you. And I wonder if you would do the same if I was in your possession.

The wisdom in you that finds solution to every problem. I love the silliness in you despite everything else.

The mind that is like no other. The hand that is a giver. The heart that has no taker. The personality that is not in order. The face that reflects the moonlight. The smile that can cause hearts to shatter. All I want is for you to be a keeper. Keeper of the heart, keeper of the soul.

What do I do to have you know.. What's buried inside is making me tremble. I'll keep holding it until its time to dig it open. Open for you to see, open so you will know the suffer.