Flying Away

I always love seeing planes flying up in the sky. 

Knowing that everyone in there has a destination. They 

have some place to head to. And there is  someone in

some corner of the world waiting for them. 

To embrace them into their arms. To feel the warmth of their kiss. 

I love seeing people rushing at the airport. Everyone

has a flight to catch. Some are heading back to a place 

they call home. Some are heading to a whole new place 

filled with strangers. When it comes to me, I prefer the latter. 

To be able to go to a place of strangers, to a new city with 

fresh new faces with new unfamiliar smell. I crave for that. 

Getting out of here, be on a plane heading somewhere 

towards the southwest. 

wonder and wander

Its always language and Geography

Its weird but thats how I like it

I am still wondering

but I guess I just love mysteries 

I am still wandering 

but I guess I will just let the wind takes me to my next destination

And I will leave it all to you to make the next step on the stairs of destiny. 

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The Internet is slowly killing my brain cells.


HOW IRONIC... 

I have other plans

Watching all these movies about romance and weddings makes me wanna have my own love story and plan my wedding day. 

But that ain't gonna happen anytime soon. 

Being a 21 year old girl, just like everyone else my age.. we have dreams to catch, things to accomplish before we start a life with someone else. Marriage is a huge commitment and I'm not ready for that yet. I still have a whole world out there to see. I still have goals to score. Getting married is probably one of them, but thats not my concern right now. 

I used to be worried about getting married. But since these past few months, I started to see things differently. Something hit me and I think marriage is not the answer to everything that I want. Of course it would delightful if you already found someone who's willing to sacrifice for your happiness. But if you haven't, don't fret. It's still a long journey ahead. And I am ready to explore it. 

I'm done

I'm done believing in you
You've gone away lying to me

I'm done hoping for miracles
You're gone leaving me hopeless

I'm done crying my eyes out
You've gone making me crumble into pieces

I'm done dreaming of fairy tales
You've gone taking the fantasy out of me

I'm done wanting for more
Because all I'd gone through was never worth fighting for

You didn't try
You didn't fight
You gave up
When all you had to do was to spit it out loud

I shall cherish those moments
Those moments spent together
Together I thought would be forever
Forever it would be in my heart and soul

It was never a mistake knowing you
It was never a mistake falling in love with you

The time we spent was not wasted
Because it was happiness all over the place
And happiness is all I want right here right now
Over and over again, just like how it used to be

....

You pull me and you push me. I'm breaking apart deciding whether to leave or to stay.

Sometimes you would talk, sometimes you would refuse to utter a single word. You're mysterious just like the hidden treasure in the woods.

You stand up for what is right. You fight for what is yours. You keep close of what belongs to you. And I wonder if you would do the same if I was in your possession.

The wisdom in you that finds solution to every problem. I love the silliness in you despite everything else.

The mind that is like no other. The hand that is a giver. The heart that has no taker. The personality that is not in order. The face that reflects the moonlight. The smile that can cause hearts to shatter. All I want is for you to be a keeper. Keeper of the heart, keeper of the soul.

What do I do to have you know.. What's buried inside is making me tremble. I'll keep holding it until its time to dig it open. Open for you to see, open so you will know the suffer.

....

The feeling inside that is burning.. I wanna let it out but it will only cause fire. The fire that gives you pain and anger and frustration. All of these combined and burst out in flames... The flames of rage, the flames of wrath, the flames of disappointment, the flames of madness. 

When feelings struck and you are stuck. The love you can't deny, the hatred you can't hide. Waves of emotions hitting on the shore. I can't help but to drown myself so it goes back to where it belongs, the ocean. 

You wanna cover yourself in the blanket of safety, but it won't fit. The blanket is too small to contain the insecurity and vulnerablity. You can't hide enough. 

To let this thought out of my mind is one of the hardest things, but I have to do it.. Before the burning gets worse, and the flames that will strike