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you're not giving me the attention that I need

what else should I do

what else can I do

when every nerve in my body craves for it

and I'm not getting any of my wishes

I WANT TO

I want to share every little thing I see everyday with you. I want to share it with you when I see a cute couple walking together in the park. I want to share it with you when I see a new book on the display. I want to share it with you when I see a new movie coming out. I want to share it with you when I see a documentary on something about the universe. I want to share it with you of what I think and how I feel about those things because I know you would always have something to say about it too. You have your way of seeing things. You have your way in living life. And that is what I love the most. 

To all of you kids, and myself :)

This is something that I want to remind all the young people again, including myself..

In this phase of life you're facing now, I can tell that it is not an easy one. You might have troubles in finding friends, you feel like no one can hear you out, you think nobody cares about you, you feel like you're carrying a super heavy load on your shoulders, you feel like no one understands you anymore, you want to be alone but you don't want to be alone, you want people to reach out to you but at the same time you don't want it.. All the confusions, all the drama, all the shit thats going on in your life. You just wanna get away with it, but you can't.

You cannot just get away with it. Because whatever you're going through with your life right now, it makes you the person you choose to become one day. You find yourself through your struggles. Every obstacle you face in your life, big or small, it changes you in a way. And every one of those will make you appreciate life even more. You choose, for the better or worse. Its all on you.

For you young kids, later on in life you will meet a lot more different people from different backgrounds. Five years ago I never imagined my life as it is right now. I used to think that people had similar way of thinking. I thought they would be more compassionate and loving towards each other. But as I grew up, I could see not everybody has the same heart as we do. Not everybody feels deeply sadden by things that I know would affect me the most. Because we're not the same. And from where I'm standing right now, I see people that think differently, they have different views on how they see life, they have different objectives in their life, they have different definition on every matter.. And we have to learn how to accept each of that.

Also you will see how some people trying to fit in with the society. Its happening now. It is going on very badly that I don't see them as individuals anymore, in fact I see them as a group of people that try to duplicate each other. In the sense of fashion, the sense of mentality.. Some people are afraid to actually point out their views and thoughts on something just because not everybody thinks the way they do. This is not how its supposed to be. With the world we live in today and every opportunity we get, we should be more open and respectful with each other's idea.

And of course at this age, we always want to try something new. It is all about having fun, experiencing life, making memories, good or bad so you would have stories to tell your grandkids one day. It is good. Creating memories, going out there to experience life is not a bad thing at all. But don't go too much on it to make it ruin your entire life. You should know that there are limits to everything. You should set boundaries to everything you do. And most importantly you have to stand to your roots. You will find people trying to trigger that one nerve in you that will make you go against yourself. You must always remember that you only have yourself when everybody leaves, so you don't want to harm yourself. Have faith in you.

Peer pressure is real, I tell you. So you would want to find friends that'd do good to you. You gotta surround yourself with people that want the best for you, and they want you to be happy because without happiness you won't be enjoying life. You will find people that try to pull you down the stairs but you gotta find people that will willingly pull you up there back again.

You have to always stay true to yourself. Stand on your ground. Do not let other people change you to become worse. Do not let them take out the positive vibes in you. Do not let them erase the enthusiasm you have in yourself because not everybody has that. Do not let them destroy your dreams. Do not be like them, because being yourself is very rare nowadays. You gotta always have that spark in you that lightens up each person that enters your life.

This message is for all of us young people who are struggling.. I remember someone once told me that we all connect through our struggles, which is very true and it got me thinking how we actually experience that everyday.

We never stop struggling because that is life. We struggle our way to find ourselves. We struggle our way to find our goals. We struggle our way to find God.