Viajar

Seeing pictures of people travelling around the world makes my butt aches.
I WANT TO TRAVEL THE WORLD!

Paris Rome Venice Milan Barcelona London Amsterdam Istanbul Morocco New York Chicago Alaska Rio de Janeiro Dubai Cape Town Budapest Prague.. the list goes on and on and on.. Bahamas! Maldives is AMAAAZING TOO. I went there early in January.. STUNNING.

Its one of the reasons why I want to be a journalist. To travel the world and talk about the people and culture and write articles for magazines. Wouldn't that be awesome? I could work for some travelling agencies. Tourism and Arts! usdhcjsncijahciuahdiua. And I should start learning photography. Buy a good camera. Slowly start learning from there..

I'm turning 20 in a few days. Time is flying and passing by. There's no time to 'play-play' anymore. I need to be more serious (I'm still gonna be me. Still the old typical weird salsa) Time is tick-tocking. Its moving, super fast. You gotta catch up, and use it to do things that you want. To do things that make you happy. Use it to reach for you dreams. People say, always aim for the brightest star. If you can't get the brightest, at least you'll get the less brighter and its still a star.

There will come a time when you realize that life is so much more than what we see around us today. There is so much more out there, ready to be explored. We just have to shove our butt a little bit, get out from the bed, and gooo, EXPLORE.

I would loveeee to go diving, but I'm too afraid of sharks. My brother and his son already have diving license, dammit.
I have to practice to become more adventurous. YES :D

I can't think of a title

I JUST TALKED TO PAOLAAAA, through Skype of course.

After all this while, I could finally see her and hear her voice again.. I miss Paola, really. She's my italian friend that I always (?) talk about. She was an exchange student here. She stayed at my house for a year. She came to Malaysia in June 2012, and went back to Italy in June 2013. AFS Exchange Student Programme is amazing. It really creates a bond between the student and the host family. Paola has been away for almost a year now, but we still keep in touch. And thanks to the social network! hahaha.

My dad was an exchange student too (under AFS). He went to America back in 1964 or 1965, im not sure. He stayed in Iowa with this one lovely family. It has been 50 years.. 50 YEARS. But Dada still contacts them. My dad calls his host parents 'Grandpa and Grandma.' They are now 90 years++. Thats crazy. He went there a few times to visit them after the programme had finished. He is planning to go and see them again soon.

You see.. the relationships we have with people are amazing. Someone who was a stranger to us could be one who is dear to our heart. Like Paola.. She was a total stranger, who came all the way from Ivrea, Italy and lived with us. And now, we are friends (more like family actually, she was my host sister). I'm planning to visit her someday with Juman.. If only Dada let us hahaha.

It upsets me to see someone who is our kin, willing to betray and do bad things toward us. Shameless human being. I'm not talking about me here.. God forbid it. But there are people I know that are willing and have the guts to do such thing to their family. Its terrible.

Blondieeeee

I've always wanted to colour my hair blonde. My hair is curly so imagine if its blonde!!! aaaahjhreworyuirf. But now, seeing all these so many hair colours are driving me nuts. They have yellow blue purple pink grey red etc etc etc. My favourite is purple. I want purple hair. Or a bit blondish. Or I'll just stick to black. yeah

I wonder how I wonder why

I wonder if people read this. Before I make my blog, I didn't care if people were gonna read it or not. I thought I would just write everything I want without thinking too much. But now.. I do. I kinda want to know if people read it. But then,, whatever. I'm just gonna talk(?). I'm just gonna write with people reading it,, or naaaahh. It doesn't matter anymore.

Finding MY Nemo :P

I've been thinking a lot about marriage nowadays hahaha.
Probably because my cousin just got married, and my sister is getting married later in September and we are all planning and talking about it. My life is surrounded with the word "nikoh nikoh nikoh"(bukan nikon ye hahahah)

I'm not sure about the future, but at this point in my life.. I only think about finding the right guy for myself. Well maybe, yes, its too early.. but right now, I don't have the feeling to go messing around, getting to know guys, flirting, go cute-guys-hunting etc etc.

I've never had a boyfriend before this.. And I'm actually proud of myself. Well maybe takde orang pernah mengorat because boys don't really like me hahahaha. But thank God.. I'm happy with it :) But to you guys yang ada boyfriend girlfriend tu, congratulations! You have someone by your side to make you happy and be in love :D I've never been in love before, yeah.

I liked this one guy in uia. We've known each other since my first semester in CFS. People say when you have a crush on or like someone for more than 3-4 months, that means you're already in love. Hahahaha. I don't think I'm in love with him though. Its like a maaajor crush. But not anymore I guess. The feeling is slowly fading away.

I am now determined to find a good man. A man that will 1) walk beside me hand in hand and help me go through every thing that comes in my way.  2) accept my gila-gila side. 3) laugh with me at all my jokes. 4) do stupid stuff alongside me. 5) appreciate me and what I do in my life (literature, journalism). 6) be old but still buy me flowers and chocolate ( I will still love chocolate when I'm 70). 7) be an amazing father to my children. 8) stay with me forever. 9) love and appreciate my family just like I do. 10) never leave me. 11) love me till the end of time.

Thats not too much to ask for eh.. Its not hard to find this kind of guy. Not all men are the same. I believe there are still plenty of them out there who are searching for the same thing.

Looks is not number 1 on my list in finding the guy. Personality is very important. You have to be kind, polite and brave, funny and a bit naughty hahahaha ;P Intelligence! Everyone loves intelligent guys. Good looks tu, semua orang nak kan. But beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. I may find Shah Rukh Khan and Robert Downey Jr. hot damn perfect.. But Geena will always prefer Daehyun over everyone (hahahaha love you Geens)

So yeaaapp. I will find my man. Maybe not now, maybe not in the next 2 years.. but I will :))

Loveeee <3

A better world we all wish for

Hello everyone..

Well as you can see in my last post, I wrote "sanah helwah" while I actually intended to say Goodnight in arabic hahahaha total fail!

Tonight I'm gonna talk about the bombings in Sungai Golok yesterday.
It was horrible. We were on our way back home and my sister called Mami telling 2 bombs have exploded. We thought maybe that would be it,, but no. They exploded SIX BOMBS, in between two to three hours. THAT is a new record.

This thing going on in Thailand right now is out of control. I can't make any speculation on this. Many people are saying that the person or party or whatever you call it, behind all of this is a muslim group. Diorang nak kebebasan dari kerajaan Siam or something like that, I have to ask Dada more about this.

So now, I'm quite scared to go to Golok. I was actually planning to go there this week. Those who live dekat sana lagi la takut nak keluar rumah. My sister lives there. She's really worried about this. Her kids go to school there, and with the work and all. I don't get it why can't people live peacefully and make other people happy without causing any trouble and chaos.

They actually stopped the bombings for quite a while, about a few months. So it kinda shocked everyone when this happened. Like six bombs bang bang in every corner. One was near a bank, one was near a famous restaurant, and ada dekat rumah my dad's friend and one in front of the hospital.

I love Thailand, its like my second home. It upsets me when things like this happen. I can't imagine how those in Egypt Iraq Afghanistan Syria Palestine etc face it every day and night. God gives them strength, and they have His blessing.

When I think about our world today, I can't help myself but playing "Imagine by John Lennon" and "Heal the world by Michael Jackson" in my head.
We all wish for a better world, but when will we start taking action?

Laila saidah <3 :)

I AM HOME

Sooooo. I just got home today, at 10.30pm. FINALLY. It was a longgggggg drive.

I don't really know what to blog about actually. I'm having a bad headache, but still, I'm sitting here, writing and stuff.

When I got here, I was so tired so I came upstairs, masuk bilik... and my little brother and my nephew were in the room. But they are not that little pun. Both are 15 and 17 respectively. I asked them to get out.. I kinda (yea kinda) yelled at them hahahaha, and kitorang gaduh sebab berebut bilik. I do this a lot. I always fight with my siblings especially my youngest brother ni lah. But I guess thats what we all brothers and sisters do.. What is the beauty of a family without fighting and screaming among each other. Brothers and sisters kat uia pun sama.

So as you guys know, I finished my exam since 8th May lagi. I stayed in Damansara for a few days and hari ni baru balik Kelantan.

Seriously I can't write anymore.  I have to shower and get some meds and sleep. I'm gonna blog a lot throughout this holiday. Be prepared hahaha. Oh yea.. to those yang tak habis exam lagi, all the best!! Sikittttt lagi. Push push push!

Alrightooo. Buenas noches. Goodnight. Selamat Malam. Buona notte. Sanah helwah (is it? not so sure)

CRUSHES

Lets talk about our crushes now.

Since high school lagi, or maybe for some of you.. since primary school lagi, dah ada crushhh.

When I first entered my secondary school, I had a crush on this guy name,,, shozzit I don't remember. But his nickname was Shark sebab rambut dia macam pacak2 sikit. But then I saw him doing dikir barat in some events in school (he did some weird dance) so I un-crushed him hahahaha. Lepas tu there was this guy, senior jugak, nama Aidil. He was like the Calvin Klein model of our school la. Then I saw him kissing with his girlfriend dalam kelas after school, so I un-crushed him jugak!

Then this guy named Siraj. He was the Penolong Ketua Pengawas kat sekolah. Dia gelap sikit, tinggi gila. I had a hugeee crush on him. He was in Form 6 and I was in Form 2. Dari awal tahun sampai akhir tahun.. The next year tu dia dah takde cause he finished his STPM (sedih gila). I think I stopped crushing on guys for a while.

Theeenn, when I was in form 5. I liked (like, bukan crush) this one guy named Solehan (if you're reading this, Hiii Solehan!!!) We follow each other on twitter hahaha. So we had something, la kot. It wasn't an iloveyou-youloveme punya relationship. Solehan is a VERY smart guy. I've always had a thing on smart intelligent guys (we all do, don't we) ;D But it didn't last that long. We are still friends, really. Bukan yang "we can still be friends" then lepas tu tak contact langsung.

Lepas tu I liked a guy, one year younger than me. His name is Syazwan. He was in form 4 at that time. But nothing really happened la. He moved to KL just a few months before my SPM. I was terribly sad to be freaking honest, I cried for days. Hahahaha those times. So yeah lepas tu takde crush dah I guess, I can't recall........ until masuk UIA.

Mehhhh number two

We had our poetry exam today. It was not good. I was aiming for A (beforeeee I see the paper), but now I guess not. Why we students have to take examssnkfjewkfjew. Belajar tu belajar la. We are here to gain knowledge. We study, we know what we are doing. We have fun studying bukan nak bagi students stress. What are exams for.

But maybe I don't know what I'm talking about. I need to ask our Ministry of Education about this hmmm. Someone give me Muhyiddin's number now.

Most of my friends here are graduating. Ughhh I hate it. Sometimes I wish they will fail some subjects so they could still stay here for one more semester. But then noooo. That is bad salsa bad. I want them to pass all subjects!!! InshaAllah inshaAllah.

This was supposed to be my last semester too. But since I failed BTQ in my first semester,,, so yeah. If I didn't extend my stay here, I have to take BTQ and UI at the same time (which is not impossible because sakinah is doing it). But then I have al lughatul arabiah. And kena ambik BMW which is not luxurious at all.

So I decided to extend.. I'm gonna take only three subjects in my long sem, which is next sem lah. They will be - Intro. to IRK, BMW and BTQ!!!! How excitingggg :DDD :((((((  Hopefully I don't fail ya habibi arabiaaahh, so tak payah belajar dah (in cfs je la) WE HAVE TO LEARN BAHASA ARAB SAMPAI LEVEL 5 NANTI PERGI GOMBAK.

I kinda regret it to be honest because now I just can't wait to finish my foundation and go to gombak. But I strongly believe Allah has better plans for us. Yes it was my decision to do this, but its all in God's hand. He is controlling everything.

Mehhhhh

Its 12.15am. And I have Linguistics final exam on Thursday. And I thought 'relax la ada sehari esok nak study'. NOOOO! What is wrong with me. I have to studyyyy. But here I am blogging and tweeting and stuff. What kind of student am I????

I was stalking (?) husna's blog.. Yes there are lots of ramblings, but those are damn good ramblings. Go husna!!!

I was just thinking. Thinking, we never stop thinking do we. I think a lot. I OVER THINK A LOT. I don't know, thats what I do best. I don't even have any point of writing this but i just feel like it. Hope nobody reads it haihh.

I called mami just now. She said she's not that well. She probably couldn't come here for the long call thingy. So yeahhh. Can't wait to go home though. I got my HIMYM series! Thanks to Adly for that :D
I'm listening to I'll Be now. Its midnight and tengah feel jiwang jiwang la konon ni dengan tak study nya. I'll be better when I'm olderrrrr i'll be the greatest fan of your life~~~~

Love is a beautiful thing you see. We are the ones who make it ugly. *ok stop don't start*

Missing homeeee

Its May 5th!!! I'll be home in Kelantan in 5 days woohhooo

Its our final exam week. Everyone is so excited to go back to rumah masing masing. My last paper is on 8th. duwyjwdnasmbsakfhaj I kenot weit enimor.

Mami and Dada are coming here on Wednesday,, or Thursday la kot.. So I'm going back with them on 10th. My sisters just finished their chambering so they'll be having this "long call". Thats what the lawyers call it. They are now certified lawyers!

I miss home and my family so much. Especially my Kakak.. She is one of the best bakers I know (other than Aina). She's the closest to me among my siblings.. I don't know why but I really miss her today. I was talking to her just now. She asked me "Cuti brapo lamo?" And I replied excitedly "Sebuleeeeeyyy." She said "Ok." THATS IT. OKKK JAH. ggrrr.. I asked her to make me strawberry cheese cake when I get homeeeee

Today is her 9th year of marriage. NINE YEARS. Thats amazing. My sister and her husband got married when I was 11, in 2005. Now I'm.... nineteen (its one month till my 20th birthdaaayyy)

Family is one of the greatest blessings God gives you. Love your family, spend time with them. Especially your parents.

"You are growing up. Sometimes you forget your parents are growing old too."

I come from a big family. My eldest brother is 43, and the youngest is 15. My dad just turned 69, and my mom is turning 59. She gave birth to me when she was 39. That is old for a woman to give birth, and its definitely not easy. Especially when the daughter turned out to be me hahahaha. Unlike many of my friends, their moms and dads are only 40-50 years old. My mom and dad could be my grandparents la kalau nak kira..

The gap between our age is huge. So I can really feel it when they say 'your parents are growing old. Show your love before its too late.'

Its very sad to think about it. I don't want to think about it. But I have to. This is life. We all are going to  die eventually. I'm sure you guys feel the same thing, and want the same thing too. We don't want our parents to die. Kalau boleh nak diorang hidup forever.

But its reality. And we have to deal with it.

So everyone.. Love your parents. Don't be shy or afraid to show your love. I call my mom everyday and always tell her I love her.

Before its too late, yes call them now. Sekarang tengah exam lagi.. Trust me, you will feel much better after that.

:D <3